One Moment in Time

"One Moment In Time"

by Whitney Houston

Each day I live
I want to be
A day to give
The best of me
I'm only one
But not alone
My finest day
Is yet unknown

I broke my heart
Fought every gain
To taste the sweet
I face the pain
I rise and fall
Yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

I've lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be
I will be
I will be free
I will be
I will be free

*****

Today I had a "moment in time."

It wasn't a special day, either. We met a group of gals and their kids up at Everett Children's Museum at 11:30, so we were a bit rushed this morning, but it was well worth it.

At 1:30, three of the other gals had to leave because their kids were having melt downs. Kaleigh and I stayed behind with our friend, Leanne, and her son, Benjamin.

Some background: Leanne and I met on a random Sunday afternoon at Costco, of all places. We had just left church and went to Costco to grab some groceries and some quick lunch. I sat down and struck up a conversation with the gal sitting next to me because her husband had made a comment about how he couldn't believe she could hold a baby and eat at the same time. We talked quite a bit and swapped numbers. Thinking nothing of it, she asked for a playdate. We were pretty busy, so it took a couple of months, but now we see them at least once a week. They'll probably make another cameo in this blog!

Back to our day: We left at 2:30 and I assumed Kaleigh would fall asleep on the car ride home. She'd just eaten a snack of pears and oranges, and had been walking all morning. Well, she didn't. I was starving since I'd just packed food for her (of course!), so I decided to drive thru somewhere. Taco Bell was right off the exit and had food for Kaleigh, too, so I ordered a quesadilla and a side of rice and beans for Kaleigh, wondering if she was still hungry. We ate in the car in the parking lot - I sat in back next to her, and she wanted NOTHING to do with the rice and beans. I tried the rice and it was pretty heavily seasoned with refried beans in it, so I hucked it (Good thing it was only $0.99!) She ended up sharing my quesadilla with me, and stayed awake for the rest of the drive home.

We had a quiet afternoon at home - she went down for a nap and then Daddy came home. We all ate dinner, and Daddy had paperwork to do, so Kaleigh and I left since I had to go get her milk at the grocery store. We ended up at the mall first because my sister had sent me a text saying she'd been there earlier that day and they had a big display of Cars (from the movie) and bags of freebies for little kids there.

I let Kaleigh out of her stroller and she walked up to the cars and got her picture taken. We then walked back and she did such a good job following me. She's never walked around the mall before, and only a couple of times at Target in a deserted part of the store, so I was quite surprised she did so well with listening. We stopped in the Disney store and she walked around in awe looking at all of the sparkling dresses, shoes (which she's particularly fond of), and stuffed animals. I was in heaven watching the look of magic and wonder on my daughter's face in there. She put everything back that she took out when asked, and stayed with me the whole time. I swear, I could've lived in that moment for three days and been incredibly happy with it.

I realized while watching her that she's growing up. That time's going by so fast, and that the love I feel for her runs so deep in my veins that they could burst. Granted, I'm aware that I love her everyday, but it was moments like these that take my breath away about being a Mommy.

So I sit here blogging about it because I don't want to forget. I know that someday I'll look back on this blog and remember, but hopefully I'll remember the actual feeling, and how intense it is, and how the words just don't begin to describe how much I loved being with Kaleigh at the mall and watching her tonight.

I can't wait to have more moments like that in my life with her - but it makes me sad because the moments that come like this means that she's growing and changing. I love it, but I hate it.

Bittersweet.